In reflection tonight I realized that my buddhism has evolved. When I started my search I was looking for direction. I went to temple and listened to Dhamma talks, I spoke with Monks and laity alike. I asked questions and gave donations thinking that someone might be able to point me in the right direction.
Then tonight as I was practicing. A calm and peaceful smile appeared on my face. For me it was a moment of complete happiness and contentment.
After I was doing sitting I thought about what happened and I realized that what the Buddha said about discovering what Buddhism means for yourself meant and the Vipassana meditation I have been doing is doing just that.
As for questions that I once had, I now realize that they are not important because things cannot be known are of no consequence as I need to be concerned with the present moment.
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